Wednesday, October 19, 2005
Why Am I So Nervous?
Today, I have a job interview. This is the first job interview I've had in many, many years. I am a confident professional! I command the room when I'm doing my job! I am an excellent and creative presenter! So why am I terrified about stupid things like:
What if I get lost?
What if I'm dressed inappropriately?
What if I suddenly get a nosebleed?
What if my shoes aren't right?
And finally, what if they judge me on my plus-sized appearance and immediately write me off?
I keep telling myself:
You can't get lost - this is a huge building downtown. You've been there before!
Your suit is fine. I like the purple striped shirt. Your nude hose is professional.
I've already put some neatly folded kleenex in the suit pocket. Hold your head high.
If you can find the shoes, they're perfect. Unfortunately, I can't find my shoes.
And hey, this is Chicago. There are a lot of plus-sized women who have good jobs right? Right... but reading stuff like this is so depressing.
So, wish me luck. I'm going to go try to find those shoes again now.
You'll be fine at the interview, I know it.
beauty + brains = BARANPOWER